The girl in the mirror isn’t me

This image…this reflection…this person. She isn’t who I see in my head. Who I see in my head is someone much different and much uglier, and completely mismatches what I see in the reflective oval.

How well can you visualize yourself in your mind? Do you see your distinctive features as clearly as you see them in the mirror? Do you see your beauty or your flaws, freckles, imperfections, and can you see the structure and outline of your face, without looking in the mirror? Is what you see in your mind, exactly what you see in the mirror?

The way I picture myself is not what or who I see in the mirror. Isn’t it strange? How is it, the young woman I see in the mirror is not what I see in my mind. It’s like I am unable to convince myself that the woman in the mirror is me. But why do I see someone else?

I picture a younger version of myself, with short curly black hair, wearing glasses, and make-up to cover up the enormous and embarrassing acne scars on my chin.

I picture a younger version of myself, who is a little chunky. She has wide shoulders, with a slim lower back, and narrow legs.

I picture a younger version of myself, who has short prickly and dark hairs above her lip with skin topped with redness and coated with dry flakes.

I picture someone, who has a flabby and lose double neck, and pudgy eyeballs.

Who is this girl? I certainly don’t see her in the mirror. The girl I see in the mirror is appealing. She doesn’t have black hair. Nor does she have acne scars on her chin. She isn’t chunky, and she doesn’t have a flabby neck. Why am I not able to see my own beauty?

25 thoughts on “The girl in the mirror isn’t me

  1. A very deep & insightful post, I truly enjoyed going through every word, thanks for sharing such a meaningful post! According to your convenience please do read some of my writings would love to know what you think about them ๐Ÿ™‚

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  2. This is such a well written post and serves as a motivation for anyone who might have a self-image issue, it’s definite that your post would motivate such a bunch. Would love it if you paid my blog a visit too, thanks.

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  3. I agree with the other commenters that this is a beautiful post!

    I myself have made my peace with mirrors over the years but I hate the way my voice sounds when I listen back to a recording of it. I couldn’t even personalise my voicemail because of it. I just left it with the generic computer voice.

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  4. I don’t picture me as myself either. I picture myself as a fatter version of myself. I think it’s called body dysmorphia or something like that. But I see every single one of my flaws and they stick out bad. I’m uglier in my head and it takes a lot of convincing that I don’t really look as ugly as I think. Beautiful post ๐Ÿ’™

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    1. I never knew that. I’ll have to look into body dysmorphia. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. You and I really do think the same way about this. I think of myself is a negative light. Yet when I look in the mirror I actually like my reflection. Why can’t we see ourselves in the mirror the way we see ourselves in our mind? Maybe there’s psychology behind it. I’m going to look into it more.

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  5. Oh my goodness I completely relate as I have been there and not recognized myself. I’m slowly getting myself back and I’m liking who is looking back at me lately. I’m more at ease and even my features have softened, i have come to appreciate and enjoy the process of knowing where I’m heading.
    Beautifully written. ๐Ÿ’™

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    1. It’s so weird, isn’t it?! Maybe my brain hasn’t accepted what my face looks like yet. I don’t know. Thanks for reading, it makes me happy that there are other people out there who have experienced something like this!

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